Saturday, May 26, 2007
What a nite...
hmm i cried jus now after closing the store....haha....
Why i cried u ask...hmm i dunno...my colleagues changed the music and started playing Take That Greatest Hits...and all the sad songs came on and he said..."hey aeron, tis is for u.." the atmosphere suddenly frozed...taufiq keeps talking abt Borders and how im gonna leave him alone for another time...and how tis is gonna be the last time i'll say bye alr..cos i wont have a chance to work with him again....
Then everything jus came on...i dunno why...i dunno how..but the tears started welling at the side of my eyes...i tried to hold on to it...i told taufiq "hey stop la....dun make me cry la u..." then i looked at him...and everything jus came out...i really felt sad leaving....Taufiq went to the computer and played BEyonce's Listen...i went over to him and said sorry....and started crying really badly...we hugged...i felt really sad and bad to leave him alone in PageOne...Then i went over to Jun and then "complained" abt how Taufiq made me cry then she said "aiya dun bother abt him" then she gave me a hug too...and i cried again..haha....yar...i noe...dumb aeron....stupid emotions...
But i guess im jus like tat...and i tot really deeep....im leaving tis job...not jus this bookstore...tis job....my First Proper job....working in a bookstore...and i rem how everyone envied me working in the holidays at the airport's bookstore...then Borders....and then now PageOne....total 4years of working experience in bookstores....and im totally forgoing it all to have a Fresh Chance...a new outlook... a new experience...
Taufiq asked "why aeron...why leave me alone here....and not jus u...cos the rest also leaving after u.."
I said "i guess...it's time i have to go and move on...i can't be here forever in a bookstore..." i considered...it's never gonna look good on my resume...jus working in bookstores...i had to look ahead and move ahead...but am sad...am sad to leave all these frenz/colleagues/buddies/sisters/brothers behind..
Tomolo's another night of work....im scared.....im scared i will cry again....cos i have to face rashidah...im worried i will react like how i react to taufiq....hopefully....will control..well...Next Wk...new place...new work...new colleagues...hopefully a new future....but i noe i will look back at these memories..these pple and say i miss them....
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