Saturday, March 24, 2007
waT?...shiT..
tHis wk's been lotsa ups and downs...haiz...been going through lotsa mental torture i must say...
SEA society really kinda shitty cos we're such a small group and yet we trying to achieve alot of things...and the professors think we're like the characters in HEROES and can do so many incredible things..it's absurd...i jus wished things were a lil more organised and tot through...and not haphazardly done...and i must say i hate it when rifhan gives the last min orders and last min thinkings...well...at least im glad tat Dan's helping me with the accounts..and Darren for doing the CCA pts for us..thank God...i wonder if rifhan's the one doing would i get the pts proper..but yar...
Ended SEA wk on a g-0-0-d note with the SEA music n dance nite..LT 13 was Filled to the BRIM...and i last min kanna roped in by Aacaan Jeab(my thai tutor) to perform for one item..so paiseh lor...=x but yar it was fun lar...and as usual the Thai Embassy food was GrEAT! ahha...oopz...if only could go Thai Embassy again...i miss the gooD food they prepared the other time...hehe..Well tomolo's the last event...and tat would be the SEA Alumni Dinner at Guild House..once again Freee DINNER! haha...but then again would have to do some organising and preparation..so...hopefully everything goes real smoothly and SEAS would end the term on a good note and end of my term this sem. =)
Had IHG Softball Supper on Wed Nite...after tat we had captain Election...I was one of the 3 candidates...inclusive of daniel Vai, yeekiat and me..(all ex-players)..I would say my skills surpasses yeekiat's definitely..well my throwing's more stable than him...so tat basically leaves me and Daniel to fight it out..I gave my speech and i tot i really gave it my all ..Im the ONLY IVP PLAYER left in this freaking hall..in fact of all the other halls..i didnt get additional pts to make me stay...i forget abt it....and i didnt even pester or mentioned to the Sports Secretary..
Im not after the position of captaincy...seriously...i wouldn't really want tat extra 2 points and do so much shit work..but i can't stand being so neglected in tis team..and i didnt wanna lose out to Daniel V again...! JC times, i lost out to him for Vice-captain cos he was an experienced player..that i nothing to say...last sem, i lost Vice-captain to him AGAIN cos he knows more people and made alot of softball frenz...fine i keep quiet too.......THIS SEM..however i beg to differ...I think skills-wise and everything else i improved n surpassed him already...i dun think i should be under this shadow anymore..i had enough...its really Detrimental to my Mental health and self confidence...BUT BUT...they still voted for him to be captain...i dunno why...i REALLY dunno....i went to ian and asked him what wrong did i do to deserve this or wat did i do to not get the position and he said
this :"well...when i knew it was gonna be between you and daniel, i knew he was gonna get it already"
and i asked: "why?"
his reply was:"huh..u see for urself lor...most of the pple from his blk one wat..."
It jus dawned unto me that...well...in this world....talents dun count anymore...and this Hall disappointed me once and again...really...terribly....the times of happiness is only in the blk and during Production...everything else jus sucks big time...
If only more A'blkers were softballers then i would have been captain...it was just tat simple equation...jus a simple string pulling...welll i didnt have it...i didnt all the time...all this well...i always do things the correct way...pulling strings always seem wrong to me...but somehow..mayb i should be evil and start to do tis...cos being Good does Good no more..im watching too many drama serials since young...
Seriously...i've lost faith in IHG softball and the hall...i dun even feel like playing for them next yr...its tat bad...and if they even bother to notice and rem to ask why aeron's not playing for IHG even when he's in IVP then i would reply simply...you guys dun need me...cos u didnt show u need me at all...NOT AT ALL...Air Turbulence at 12:24 AM