Monday, October 16, 2006
wHere t0 draw tHe Lines?
Im really angry with alot of stuffs(yes even if its wrong i still like to use this word in its plural form) and i dun really noe whether i should or should not be angry....cos theoretically i should be angry but practically i shouldn't because there's really nothing much to be angry about..
But i feel that the friendship has and had been affected somehow...and especially on my side...
I feel really upset when frenz-some1 i bother about don't bother to reciprocrate the same amount of efforts you put into the friendship. Is there a need to hide some things from a fren who bother to ask after you? Mayb..mayb you need to retain certain amount of privacy..mayb.. yes i agree with that..mayb i think myself too close to you as a fren and as such tot i'd be let in on such things if i bothered to ask..however, apprarently not.
I just so hate to hear information or news about a fren,whom i feel close to, from other frenz....its just a sucky feeling like hey...couldn't you have like told me yourself rather than having me to listen to UR news from other pple?? its just the "why am i later than pple to noe abt it when i tot i was close to u" kinda reaction...or mayb it jus shows one thing- that i am not close at all. it just happens.. i think too highly of myself...
i just wish things could get back to normal...that i could trust u as a fren once again...but i dun think so as yet...i prefer to leave the gap..wide open..such that i wont create another illusion that there isn't any and yet fall into the deep hole without even realising what happened...i dun wish to fall into it again...
Another incident also happened...was asking to chip in for a frenz present since im not really tat economically viable to buy something good for him myself...so tot i would jus share a present with 2 other frenz and the response from one of them was that their present budget was quite low already with 2 person sharing and if i join in then it wouldn't be very nice...cos like quite cheap....
Hmmm so i tot...ok...hmm then i prob have to think of something myself and perhaps get a belated bday present instead..since i dun wanna inconvenience the other 2 and bug them to let me have a share..but i think its quite terrible that i later found out that they actually shared the present with another person in the end...reason being it was a last min thing...somehow one cant help but think "isit because the person that asked was closer to u than me that's why he could join in?". Its the first thing tat came to my mind cos it was the most apparent reason why he could share and i couldnt...mayb it was really the Last min LAst sec thing...mayb....but i cant take it...imagine ur the one treated like this...i think its unfair..
Nvm...Anyway...amidst the bad news i've had so far i've finally had something Good to talk abt....Yesh... I won tickets from 8days to watch World Trade Centre! haha yea! free movie...hmm wait mayb not...consider my sms in...$0.60? haha...yea!!woohoo...!!Lionel wants to watch with me...haha...but he noes its ok if i dun watch it with him cos he can afford to watch it with OTher pple!!=PAir Turbulence at 5:00 PM