Monday, October 09, 2006
passing tots..
hmm had really bad HAZE the past 2days...i couldn't breathe properly on sat's training...and my gooodness..didnt realise that PSI was at 130...hmm..i had difficulty training...was feeling really tired..but still hung in there....haha..well..tats me lar..and anyway.....performed better on SAT...Coach was praising that my throwing's more stable...hopefully i'll really get better with more trainings...
Anyway....was thinking that people who smokes can save on a few sticks these days since the haze's so bad....they are literally smoking by breathing....so why bother wasting money....? And as if the air isn't bad enough...i see people smoking like there's no tomolo.....seeing the streets of orchard was in a bad hazy state and i have to see more smoke coming from people's mouth...i just tot...hey...mayb u should just die early lar...Cos the air's already bad and u still wanna smoke...asking to die early rite?no? To make matters worse...i saw John in town outside heeren and he was smoking...John's my Scouts Senior...and one whom i respected alot alot....just like the rest of my Scouts seniors... i just can't picture someone whom i so respect to just lose my respect in this manner...Really...he's not the first....in fact i wasn't as shocked....i got a shock of my life when i knew Lin Pei and Albert smoked..both of whom are my Scouts Seniors...both just seem not the kind to smoke? but in the end....they too gave way...gave way to this harm that would leech their life off before they realise it..I jus hate smoking and cigarettes...add them together is = i really hate u combi.. Not tat i hate u as a person..but i really hate it when FRENz or pple i respect smokes..i dunno how to explain it...but to me its the if u smoke u should go and die mentality..cos by smoking ur exposing urself to this really harmful thing!!! argh! for wat? and reading my fren's blog i can see his grandfather's pic w/o his voicebox...and he lost it cos of smoking 20yrs back...yes.....he quit and it came back to haunt him...dun come to me and say "so?see if u quit also tio dun quit also tio might as well dun..." u guys noe it doesnt apply this way...jus quit...while u can try to escape the clutches...from the harmful effects of smoking...
Im feeling kinda unappreciated around hall...dunno why im getting this feeling...but i feel damn sian abt it....think i talked abt this things before...dun think i should say again...nvm....so wat if u cooked fried rice for the whole blk so wat if u bother bringing mooncakes and lanterns to celebrate...so wat?ur jus not appreciated...cos everyone takes it for granted....... =?
im kinda tired....mayb i should jus lay off everything....in the end pple might jus think im irritating... its the same everywhere...so wat if ur concerned? pple might not appreciate it anyway...or even worse...pple take it wrongly and think ur being sarcastic or bitchy......well...i can be quite sometimes...but im not ALL the time......isit that hard to not take me as it is?Air Turbulence at 12:14 AM