Friday, October 13, 2006
busy wk...but bad wk...efforts wasted...
Its been such a busy 2wks...been doing so much for debate(SS module) for everything!! And i don't seem to have gotten any rewards or visible improvements in any thing at all that i could smile upon..Jus got back philo paper today...i didnt expect her to return it so fast when vincent told me to expect to wait quite long cos she marks very slowly......
well...got it back and the mark i saw on the paper was 14... at first i tot i saw wrongly...then realised its really a 4 not a 9...i almost cried...in tutorial yes...but managed not to because i was in tut....my 1wk's efforts gone to waste..and to think i tot i did relatively well for this essay but i couldn't even get the average mark of 17 amongst the class.....WTH is wrong with me?! Why are all my efforts all going to waste....not jus philo other things too.....i had a feeling my debate went well and i spoke well....but was it tat way....mayb i jus think too highly of myself.....i really feel disillusioned...whoever says efforts will pay off can bloody hell go eat his own words...cos it didnt!
=(Air Turbulence at 11:45 AM