Monday, June 05, 2006
jus a cloud of the day..thinkin
have u experienced having known some1(for eg. A) for some time, and another fren(eg. B) that u know also gets to know A thru you or any other means and for the strangest of reasons, A & B becomes the best of frenz...or even form their own cliche of frenz...but of cos...you R...exclusively excluded from it...and also for the strangest of reasons, when u try to contact or meet up with either one of them, they would most likely be together...or strangely...going to meet up...hmm... and the reply u get most of the time wouldnt be really optimistic i would say...Now..then you start to think and reflect...so where have u gone wrong...? wat have others done right that you've done all wrong? you try to keep in touch with them & try to sneak into the cliche...but unfortunately...you r never in..or rather you always tot u entered the door....which didnt open for u at all...why try so hard then you ask...? well..mayb u r jealous with other pple's success at maintaining and establishing good PR & frenships...whichever way you see it..or you jus simply can't take losing of to a person who obviously jus didnt noe the math of time & relations...or isit? watever...you jus hope u were part of the game..regardless of whether u clicked with the cliche mentally/physically...On the other hand, its actually quite sad on your part...cos it would seem that you were poor in handling frenz or in fact not able to grasp the string of events that have led to all these...did u forget to ask after A from time to time? or did u not get to noe both even deeper after being acquainted...so wat if u did?? but the feelings werent reciprocrated?you should jus feel sad and die off...cos u were a loser... kidding...well...mayb it doesn't seem fair to u...mayb it doesn't...but at the end of the day...since when is everything fair?? some pple born to be handicapped, while some born to be with a silver spoon in their mouths.. i think...if u did ur part...if u think you filled at least a certain chapter...or mayb a some tiny clause in the thick books of A & B's lives...im sure u should be happy enough...who noes...you might really have entered the door that opened but didnt realise... well..wat goes around comes around...as karma dictates...being you...doesnt mean wrong...but u jus hope that you get more fren's reciprocrations...like anyone should feel... the sun shined...with the rain falling...and the rainbow showing...all thats glum and anger might not be bad...mayb it'll show the happiness soon...Air Turbulence at 1:40 AM