Friday, January 13, 2006
a New Year...a New Post...t|me f0r a New Me?
mY frsT p0sT f0r the new year..dun ask me why it took so long..i dunno..haha..prob cos there was nothing to write?I didnt spectacularly spent my new year's day...but it was a nice and cosy day to start the yr with and hopefully it would stay that way for the rest of my life...It was kinda tough stepping into camp again after such a long block leave..really hard..such was the tendency to AWOL and enjoy civilian life...but hey...i still wanna dream abt the nice and cosy day i'll b having in 2046...so i didnt...i dun wanna give the stupid organisation any chance of keeping me back a day further...nor give them any chances of torturing me with their deficient system..People say those Within 2months of ORD normally would be the happiest cos they would be very slack and jus killing time off before they ORD...i cant say the same for me...i feel really suppressed...having a "training" programme still..booking my leave seems so difficult...i change the dates every other day cos every other day things jus seem to pop out of nowhere and hey u can take leave tat day..."huh? hello...im ORDING!!gimme a break! " im having CST(combat survival training in tekong) on the week before my bday...that sucks...really sucky..im not the worse....my colleagues who have to go thru it and yet have their bday during the course are worse off...and its their 21st!Jus realised i got stabbed again...jus because i didnt help the pple in camp to book their dental FFI while i was there....i jus tot it will be best that they booked themselves...i went to dental...then found out that they changed their number so i first hand called ziqin to tell him so that all of them can call and book the appts.But couldnt get thru so i asked yi xiang to pass the new number to everyone...and i guess he didnt...cos sng said he didnt...but i didnt wanna help everyone book then later when the dates clashed with their leave or offs days they sure complain...isnt it better to let them book themselves instead especially since i knew that the problem before was tat the phone number was wrong so they couldnt get thru and not because no one was answering??and because i was there and the medic was right in front of me that's why i asked yixiang to pass the number to everyone to call before he gets busy and running about...then chao nam asked me to help him book an appt...and i did it...not before doing the same thing gave him the number and then he kept pestering me then i made sure he's ok with any dates then i booked..and i tot i couldnt help pple book in the first place also..after tat i went in for dental liao...had to switch off my phone then when i was done i switched on saw sng msg asking me to helped them book but i was already walking out already so i told him to call sasi instead since he was there with brendan,gerald,herbert and shannon so all of them can help to book and the medic wont say anything.. i was doing COS yest...and sng msg me telling me that he felt i was selfish...and he was quite disappointed with me....its jus ridiculous wat pple behind my back are saying....i was jus trying to prevent unhappiness so they wont complain when i booked a bad date and in the end i still ended up getting bitched..u get talked about when u are too nosey and all but when u dun bother u also get talked about...i really cant satisfy wat these pple want....i really cant...Im really waiting to get out....they suggested a day during March when we clear leave to come back and do things together....soccer and monopoly or risk etc....to me...i dun think there's any pt...it doesnt really matter...my new yr resolutions included:once im out im outta there...dun bother.. Im not gonna waste a day there with them doing nothing and not carrying any significance...end of the day?they still wont think any good of me jus cos i spent the day with them...neither would it add to them thinking worse of me cos they already think bad of me.....Therefore...i still go for my leave and they enjoy their day together...win-win situation...And to the person whom i disappointed...im really sorry to have disappointed u....mayb i really should have just walked back to help everyone book their dental...but really i didnt mean to...mayb jian hao would have understood better if he was here.....meanwhile...im still counting..down...56 days, 13 hours, 10 minutes, and 33 seconds left Air Turbulence at 1:34 PM